America, Why Did You Choose Fear?


Oh, America. I have loved you from birth but today you have let me down. Me and countless others who look to you for safety, freedom and progress. I woke up wondering if I had slipped into an alternate reality. I wish I had so I could claw my way back to safe purchase.

I have never been so disappointed than to wake up and learn that fear has won. I had such hope. Now I have anger and sadness, a bitter mix.

What will become of us? I can only hope these years are impotent and show up as little more than a thin, dark chapter in our country’s history. Can we overcome this? I don’t know.

Safety. So elusive. America has strayed so far from the ideal even if it is thought that is what we are reaching for with this election. No, what is sought is a history that did not serve us and no longer exists.

There is nothing else to say outside of condemnation. After all, what could I say other than how could you? How could you endorse a man with so little care for other humans under any circumstances? He never gives anyone what they want except himself. And there is so much left to know. But . . .

I have long since learned it does not matter how compassionately or articulately I speak. If you are not open to hearing me, you won’t. And clearly you have not listened to me or voices like mine because this point? We would not have arrived here if you had.

Shawna Ayoub

Shawna Ayoub is an essayist, fiction writer, poet and instructor with an MFA in creative writing from Indiana University. Some of her work has been published in The Manifest-Station, Role Reboot, [wherever], The Huffington Post, The Oxford Review and Exit 7. Her writing explores the intersections of race, place and survivorship. She writes with honesty about her own experience in order to transform pain.

4 Discussion to this post

  1. Russ says:

    We can overcome this, we will overcome this. Fear and hate won this fight, but love and truth and hope will win in the end.

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