I spent weeks wondering who
you are. The domino days
have struck in toppling distance.
We are skipping on our own ideas
Two players: the self and the shadow,
an off-board game of Hot Lava.

I never know where to land
when I can see us both
–in you or near you?
Duality of self is curious; I find
me on the mosquito side
of the wooden screen door.

I watch myself drawing identity
–that four syllable path to the soul
piece–from the basket of the unclothed
mind. Shadows and worries
danced in the lily-bright
fields of the wedge-wheel sun.


This reflection on self, depersonalization and derealization is a response to the first of 30 #LinkYourLife prompts. Find the 30 Day #LinkYourLife Challenge here 

Shawna Ayoub

Shawna Ayoub is an essayist, fiction writer, poet and instructor with an MFA in creative writing from Indiana University. Some of her work has been published in The Manifest-Station, Role Reboot, [wherever], The Huffington Post, The Oxford Review and Exit 7. Her writing explores the intersections of race, place and survivorship. She writes with honesty about her own experience in order to transform pain.

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  1. Absolutely beautiful in its own tragedy, these words resonate xxx

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