In what could only be the result of an influx of new mother hormones, I grew overwhelmed by my internet presence (admittedly not that great) and pulled back hard on all the strands of myself. I might have made another choice. Instead, I deleted the entire content of this blog.

Fortunately, I still have access to the blog posts through wayback. I still have what I wrote of “The Docks”. I wish it was still here in the files of this site, if offline.

People, you have to talk me down from this sort of thing. You have to tell me, “You’re overwhelmed and you aren’t thinking clearly.” You have to give me a hug and remind me that it’s okay to put myself out there. Risks can be wonderful.

So, cheers to risks! And cheers to those of you who find your way back here as I re-scale my spire. Meet me at the top.

Shawna Ayoub

Shawna Ayoub is an essayist, fiction writer, poet and instructor with an MFA in creative writing from Indiana University. Some of her work has been published in The Manifest-Station, Role Reboot, [wherever], The Huffington Post, The Oxford Review and Exit 7. Her writing explores the intersections of race, place and survivorship. She writes with honesty about her own experience in order to transform pain.

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  1. jncl says:

    Oh, my dear, please don’t ever do that again! I’ve been wondering where your internet voice had gone! If anybody in the world understands feeling overwhelmed, I assure you that it’s me. Just don’t disappear on us; we’re listening with unconditional love.

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